I'm Struggling

Things are starting to get harder to handle. All  the stuff leading up to the IVF was going so smoothly until lately. All the hormones being pumped into my body are really starting to effect me. It's getting harder to stay optimistic about everything. I am an emotional wreck and feel like crying one minute and yelling at someone the next. I hate being hormonal... but this time is pretty bad. 

One of the shots tonight really hurt. It must have just been a bad spot. The new medication I am on burns like heck after being injected. Really its only maybe like 5 minutes total of pain each night so It's not that big of a deal. I just dread it each night. My stomach is all polka dotted from all the needles getting shoved in it each night. It will be nice when my stomach can go back to being a stomach... instead of a pin cushion.

It is all just overwhelming. I am trying hard to stay positive but just struggling with it right now. I keep telling myself I really only have a little over two weeks before I will be all done with the IVF. Sadly I have to face the dreaded 2 week wait after that. The month of December is going to be a very emotional month. Hopefully Christmas and everything else will help keep my mind off of things and help me make it though.

Anyways on the plus side... I texted Mike this morning telling him that I wasn't feeling good and was feeling super hormonal and asked him to buy me a box of chocolates. He took it one step further and bought a box of chocolates, plus a bag of Dove chocolate. Seriously.... I don't know what I would do without him! So glad he is being so understanding of all my crazy mood swings and everything I am going through. I am also glad he is doing the shots for me since I am too big of a chicken. He is actually getting really good at it. I'm impressed! Very glad to have him in my life.