The Song for Every Situation

You know how there is always one specific song that you just latch onto? The song that inspires and gives you hope? The song you can listen to when you are depressed. The song that seriously can fit every situation you will ever find yourself in, in one way or another. Well I have one of those songs. It has never let me down. I LOVE it!   My husband asked me out of curiosity to look at my itunes and see which song was the most played. I wasn’t surprised which song it is, but I was a little surprised to see that I have listened to it over 200 times.  It beat out 2^nd most played by over 60 plays. It even beat out my Favorite song “The Best I ever Had” by Vertical Horizon by almost 75 plays.  

This song has been here for me through all kinds of situations. The first time I heard it…. I mean REALLY heard it was on my Honeymoon back in September of 2008. Mike had played this song before, but It never jumped out at me until that day. I can remember it perfectly. We were driving on a highway between Bozeman, Montana and West Yellowstone. The trees were showing their full fall display. It was dusk, and the rain clouds were dark and really low, hiding the tops of the mountains. It was gorgeous! I remember this song coming on and the lyrics jumping out at me….” You've got the future on your side.You're gonna be fine now.I know whatever you decide. You're gonna shine.”  It hit me in that moment that I was starting a new chapter of my life. I had gone through hell with My ex, and had really made a mess of my life.  Mike was offering me a whole new life. By marrying him I was turning over a new leaf.. starting anew. I knew in that moment that I was going to be fine. I had my entire life ahead of me with him and I felt safe and really happy. 

The next instance that this song helped me was shortly after my mom died. “Look around, Where do you belong. Don’t be afraid, you’re not the only one.”  It was crazy how I could feel so alone in my grief. I know I was not alone by any means, my family was all going through the same thing. Hearing those lyrics made me realize that many people before me had gone through losing their mother at a young age, and they survived. I was not alone. Although I felt like I was a different person and almost felt like I didn’t fit in with normal society anymore because I was motherless…. I realized that I was by no means alone. It was comforting to me.

When I made the decision to leave the company I had been with for the last 6 years, I was scared. I was so uncertain that I was making the right decision by starting with a new company.  This song once again brought me comfort… “Life is short, so learn from your mistakes and stand behind the choices that you make.” That is something I have always had a problem with, is standing behind the choices that I make. I always second guess myself. I needed to trust that the decision I had made was the right decision. 

I know it sounds stupid to feel such a strong connection to a song, but this one has really helped me though. It still helps me though. It hit me yesterday that this IVF is really happening. I do my first shot tomorrow night. Before I know it I will be right in the thick of it all. It scared me, but I know I am not the only one who is going through this. Many people have done this and have survived it. I feel like it’s a huge step to take, but I am ready.  I had a coworker ask me if having a child was really worth all of the shots and medications and stress of IVF. I can honestly say that to me, it’s worth it. I still get angry on occasion that we even have to go this route, but I guess I am accepting it and just trying to move forward. As overwhelming as everything is, I am just going to take it one day at a time. 

Anyways… the full lyrics to “The Answer Lies Within” by Dream Theatre

Look around
Where do you belong
Don't be afraid
You're not the only one

Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within

Life is short
So learn from your mistakes
And stand behind
The choices that you make

Face each day
With both eyes open wide
And try to give
Don't keep it all inside

Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within

You've got the future on your side
You're gonna be fine now
I know whatever you decide
You're gonna shine

Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
You're ready to begin
Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within