I am tired of waiting!

I am at my wits end. I am tired of waiting. I found this place to go thru IVF that was cheaper and had a higher success rate. I was so excited (although terrified) to actually be moving forward with the infertility and taking the big step of IVF. I knew that it was going to be a bit of a wait to actually do the IVF, but it is just getting ridiculous!

I called and talked to the Dr office today. I was told to call the end of September. Well It seems like things are just getting pushed back. So now I have to do another month of Birth Control and then call them in the middle of October so they can get things scheduled and planned from there. I wont even be starting the stimulating drugs until Thanksgiving! Therefore IVF wont actually be until the beginning to middle of December. It just seems so far away. I cant even imagine another month of just sitting around waiting. I feel like I am sitting in one place not taking any steps forward. It is just tough.

Combine that with a VERY stressful day at work, and the fact that I am hungry but too lazy to look thru the cupboards and find food... and you have one grumpy Melissa. So I am just going to lounge in my PJ's and watch Teen Mom. I would totally pull out the ice cream or chocolate if I had any but no luck there.

Either way I am hoping I can somehow make it thru this next month rather quickly. I have a couple vacations coming up so hopefully that will help the time pass quickly. I just don't want to wait anymore. Part of me sits and thinks if I would have just gone thru the U then I would not have to wait so long to do IVF, but I really felt the place I am going was right so I need to trust that. I just need to be patient but that doesn't seem to be one of my strong points.

I really hope these next few months will go by fast. I am tired of having the IVF hanging over my head and just want it done and over with!