Bucket List

So I think I mentioned in a previous post about writing a bucket list. I finally saw the movie and really liked it. Anyways I sat down and started to think of the things that I would put on my bucket list. I came up with places I would love to travel to like Alaska, Scotland, and the concentration camps in Poland (namely Auswitz.. although I am sure I misspelled that). I even came up with some things like get either my palm read, tarot cards read, or talk to a psychic... purely because that would just be a fun experience. Not so much because I would believe them. I also thought it would be neat to go visit Alcatraz again but this time do their night time tour. That place is creepy enough in the day time, but I can only imagine how awesome it would be at night.

As I am trying to think of things, I just kept going back to the whole baby thing. I know that a lot of this would be put on hold, or would potentially never happen if I had a baby, but I realized that I am perfectly fine with that. In fact I struggled to think of things to do when the top thing I want in my life is a child. That trumps everything! Mike and I have talked about how things would be different if we had a child... like no more eating out, and we wouldn't be able to travel and go on so many vacations... but we are ok with that. We had 5 years together to play, and now it is time to settle down. I honestly don't mind trading some of the things on my bucket list for a child.

I can't remember if I posted about Mike and I deciding to do In-Vitro. I am to the point where if we are going to do it, I just want to do it. So we just scheduled the consultation today. It will be next Thursday. It will be a phone consultation since the Dr is in LA. He does travel to Utah every other month. So the consultation is scheduled, and I even went ahead and paid the consultation fee (which wasn't cheap). I am really excited. I am also really scared. I want so badly for this to work for us. I keep thinking that by Christmas, I might have a little life growing inside of me. Next year I could have a baby.

I feel like things are finally starting to get going again with the infertility stuff. I know the next few months will be stressful and super scary, but I am ready for it. I know there will be tons of injections I will have to give myself (or Mike will probably have to give me since I don't think I could stab myself with a needle), and there will be tons of ultrasounds, and a lot of uncomfortable moments... but it is the price I am ready to pay to get my top bucket list item. We are jumping into the infertility world with both feet, wish us luck!