I will miss you Mom!

So for those that didn't know, My mom passed away Monday afternoon from a blood clot that hit her heart. It was a quick an unexpected death. I am so glad it was quick though and she didn't have to go thru chemo or radiation. It is still hard to accept the fact that I can't see her when I want, nor can I call her when I need to vent.

This whole week has been such a blur but it has been incredible! We have had all the family together and have been able to enjoy each others company. It has been so neat having everyone together.

Yesterday morning we all got together and dressed my mom. I was so afraid to see her but dressing her was the neatest thing. It was like therapy. We could all feel my moms spirit in the room so strong. I am so thankful I got to do it.

Last night we had a viewing. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I was able to see her in the coffin and be ok with it. I am glad there was such a good spirit in the room. It was sad but there was a lot of happiness and it was nice to talk to everyone. I have a feeling the funeral is going to be different though. I am also glad that before everyone arrived Jenny and I were able to sing Primary songs at the piano and harmonize like we always did growing up. My mom loved hearing us sing so I am so glad we got to sing for her one more time.

It still doesn't feel like reality to me. I don't know when its going to be reality for me. I know it's going to hit me hard... I just don't know when. I already miss her. I wish I could give her one final hug. It also kills me that she wont be there for when I have kids. I wanted so bad for her to be around for that. I just feel too young to have lost my mother already. There is still so much I need her for. I just have to accept that she was needed on the other side.

I am glad she is with her dad. That had to have been such an incredible reunion getting to be with her dad and meet her brother Ronnie for the first time who had died a few hours after being born. I know she is happy and not in pain anymore. I am happy for her... I am just sad for those of us left behind that have to try to fill the void left behind from such an incredible person!

Every Kids Dream!

So we have massive amounts of leaves that fall off our trees. We have already raked a bunch of leaves in the front and bagged them, and Mike took the time to rake the back yard into a huge pile. Some of you might remember how we threw the dog into the piles of leaves last year; well that has become a tradition. So the pile in our back yard is huge! Every kids dream! We are planning on bagging them all this weekend but until then... its just one huge pile.

We baby sat Mikes niece and nephew this evening. They were so excited to see the small leaf pile in the front yard so I knew they would be extra excited to see the pile in the back yard. So we led them out back and their eyes got huge. They wanted to jump in it but at first Mike didn't want them to. I convinced him that it would be a good way to entertain the kids for a little while and that it could always be raked up again later.

They had a blast! They thought it was the neatest thing ever! Molly even got thrown in a few times. I got some good pictures of them but then decided I wanted to join in the fun. So I jumped in with them. It was fun. It sucked trying to pick all the leaves out of my hair afterwards... but soooo worth it! So now for some pictures and video...

Update on my Mom: She is out of the hospital. They sent her home today finally after a month of being in there. I am glad she is doing so much better. They just have to get her completely healed from the surgery and they can then test for the cancer. I am just happy she is home!

Halloween

We started out our Halloween by getting up at 5 am to head to Provo for a Halloween Half Marathon Mike ran. We made a bed in the back of the SUV for me so I could sleep for a few hours before he would be at the finish line. The race was suppose to start at 8 am so I figured I would get to the finish line by 9:10 so as not to miss him. So I wander over there at the said time and noticed the clock only showed them running for 12 minutes. They then announced they had a really late start. So I headed back to the SUV and read for another hour before heading back.

Mike did really well. His time was 1:24:01 which was a PR (Personal Record) for him. I thought he came in ninth but apparently I need to go back to preschool to learn how to count again. He actually was number 10 out of 727 runners. He was also third in his age group. It was a fun race. There were lots of people in costume. We saw some interesting costumes, like Balloon Boy, and Bill Gates. It was fun.

I don't know if you can read his shirt but it says "This is my Marathoner Costumer"
We then headed home and took a nap an relaxed most of the day. We did end up going shopping in the afternoon but it was crazy. Everyone and their dog were at walmart. I hate crowds so I was just anxious to get done and get out of there.

Halloween night came around and we ended up adding some neat decorations to our grave yard scene. We took some fire wood and piled it up and put a big black cauldron on it. We then put orange lights under the fire wood so it looked like fire. We also put some white garbage bags in the cauldron with an orange light in side so it looked like it was liquid inside bubbling over. It was cute. I was so proud of our work. Sadly we didn't get any trick or treaters except Mikes niece and nephew and Linda and Shelley's kids. That was only because I called Linda and begged her to bring them trick or treating to our house so they could see my cool yard. It was rather disappointing no one else showed but part of it was our porch light wouldn't stay on. I figured that was probably the biggest reason.

On the plus side... Mike and I got to watch The Lost Boys. I love that movie. Its a fun one. So we watched that and ate dinner and then called it a night. It was an ok night but I still wish we could

have had some trick or treaters.... but oh well. I guess Halloween isn't what it use to be.

We tried to get pictures of our yard but it was hard to get any good ones in the dark. So this is the best we could do.

Mikes niece and nephew Saleen and Dallas